LETTING GO (A True Story) Part 2 “I’m not stressing out”.
“When you let go, you allow God to step in your situation”
To continue the last post, I strongly believe(d) that this guy would be my husband. Even if I had a ‘revelation’ from God, He wanted me to hold my peace, trust Him and work according to his timing but I didn’t. I was going ahead of myself and God.
Exodus 14:14 The Lord shall fight for you, and ye shall hold your peace.
Let God fight for you, you can’t do it by your own strength, you are very limited. Before I proceed, whether you are a man or woman, who likes someone and believes that that person could be your spouse, it is important to build a friendship. Don’t come all “thus saith the lord”, praying and fasting 24/7 that you forget that you still genuinely need to like and be good friends with the other person. It’s something I missed. I love the scripture that says “Let brotherly love continue” for me, that indicates friendship and a genuine agape relationship.
Things were not that awkward between us, we liked each other and were still getting to know each other alongside school, service to God in church, work and just being young adults. It was a good place. But after a while I started to stress myself about the whole thing, yes I believed I had heard from God or that He had spoken concerning Brother K, but it was not my place to do God’s part for Him. I was overthinking the whole thing. All in the name of praying, hearing from God and being led by him, I started getting stress; a common consequence of trying to assist the Holy Spirit.
Even in my ‘stressed’ state God was still speaking, though I was not hearing very much because my mind was clouded with thoughts, I was trying to be “spiritual” forgetting the physical and understanding that although God looks at the heart man pays attention to the outward; the physical realm. We needed to connect, to build genuine friendship. I’m not saying the prayer room is not important, by all means girl, get on your knees and fight but don’t close your eyes to reality and stress yourself all in the name of spirituality. I also needed to remember to
Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth. Psalm 46:10
Sometime back in December or January, I asked God on two occasions to confirm His word and speak to me and to be honest, I didn’t quite know that I was stressing out, the first word I received was
Luke 1:45 And blessed is she that believed: for there shall be a performance of those things which were told her from the Lord
On another occasion, the word I got was
Matthew 11:28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
The second verse was not what I expected, I was thinking to myself, what does rest have to do with this? A lot of times we ask God to speak, and when He does, it’s not what we want to hear. Whenever we’re waiting on God for anything, we should always remember to come to God and not man for peace because only God gives rest amidst uncertainties and with the events that followed, I discovered that I needed rest with a capital R.
The first verse on the other hand was very encouraging and it made me believe that this guy could actually be the one, I was 90% sure and if anything, I was 100% sure that God wants all his children to have a glorious and beautiful marriage. Seen Jeremiah 29:11 and Genesis 2:18
Be blessed by this song:
Stand Still by: Deitrick Haddon ft. Donnie McClurkin